Fear

What strikes fear in you?

I’m afraid, or have been afraid of several things. Here are a few examples:

When we found out Shantel had cancer, that was not only  real, but also a life threatening danger.  We weren’t sure if she would live or not, and of course, I was afraid of the unknown at the time.

When Shantel was younger, before she developed into the beautiful, independent, young woman she is today, I was afraid of what would become of her if something would happen to Bill and I.

I’m afraid of flying, but I don’t let my fear stop me from flying.

But, I’m not talking about that level of fear. I talking about the little things that may not be life threatening, but still strikes fear in you.

I like to think of myself as a strong, independent, woman. I have faced my own demons, and the demons of others in my life. I have never been the type of woman who felt the need to have someone around to protect me, but just lately, I’m not so sure.

I’ve lived in Arizona for all my sixty years on this earth, and I have never even seen a scorpion around my home let alone in my home, until now! Yes, my beautiful, new dream home has scorpions, and I am terrified of them. I’m not talking about just a little bit afraid, I mean I am all out TERRIFIED! They have to be the scariest creatures on earth. Looking at them is looking at pure evil as far as I am concerned.

Saturday was my birthday. I’m dashing around the house getting ready to go out to lunch with Bill and Shantel, when I happen to look out our French door leading to our beautiful patio, and what do I see but a huge scorpion walking along the back of my house. I quick called Bill out, and in a panic, I all but demanded he kill it. He got a shoe and hit it and it dropped on the patio but he couldn’t find it. Now, I’m even more TERRIFIED, because if he killed it why isn’t the body there? No, now, I’m convinced he only stunned it and now it is really pissed off and coming after me. I told Bill I had never seen a scorpion in or around any of my homes. He said, “well you still haven’t seen one in your home”.

Now, I’m thinking OK, perhaps this was just one ,lone ranger, scorpion, and is the only one I’ll ever see. But, NO! I go in the house, and just as I’m walking into our master bedroom, I see another huge scorpion on the window shade right by our headboard. OMG! I screamed like a little school girl, and Bill came running in. I showed him the scorpion and he said “If it were on a hard wall, I would kill it, but if I try to hit it on the shade, it will just knock it on the floor”. I don’t know how I even found my voice, because I was so scared, but I did, and said “Bill, I am going to stand in the doorway of our room and watch this thing so if it moves, I know where it goes, and you need to go buy some kind of spray that will kill it right now”. I know for sure Bill has never seen me so scared, and he left immediately.

Now, Shantel was home with me and trying to talk to me about something and I am trying to keep my cool because the last thing I want her to know about our beautiful, new home that she didn’t want to move to in the first place…is that now, we have scorpions to contend with. Now, I’m to the point of hyperventilating just thinking about what would happen if one of these evil things ever got on her, and I’m praying for Bill to please hurry.

Bill gets back with a scorpion instant killer spray, and sure enough, it kills the evil monster dead on the spot! Now, I tell Bill to pick it up and take it outside and smash it. He says “it’s dead”. I say in a panicked, very high-pitched voice, “I don’t care…smash it”! Then I said, honey I’m going to have to apologize to you later, when I’m in my right mind, because right now, I’m scared out of my right mind !!! He takes it out and smashes it, as I wait in the house about to throw up from fear!

Then, I remember my cousin, Deb, posting on Facebook that she had scorpions. So, I send her an email asking her what she does to get rid of them? She responds with a wealth of information, one thing being get a black light and hunt them down at night, capture them in a cup (with a lid) and kill them with the spray. HUNT THEM DOWN…!!! Why would I want to HUNT them down??? I’m scared to death of them and I don’t ever want to see them again and I for sure don’t want them to see me…but my cousin is really, really smart, she knows things…so, off we go to get a black light. Now, picture me sitting in bed with a black light all night, afraid to close my eyes because I also read they can crawl up the walls and walk across the ceiling! OMG shoot me now!!..And, to make matters worse, I find out they like dark, damp places…Shantel has a bad habit of leaving her towel on the floor in her room after her shower.  OMG, OMG, now I have to tell Shantel about this so she will understand I’m not just trying to get her to clean up her room, I’m trying to help save her life! These things get bigger and bigger as you go longer and longer without sleep!!!

I tell Shantel all about the scorpions, and to my surprise, she took it much better than I am. She wanted to know how many we saw and I am happy to say we only saw the one outside and the one in our bedroom…so far! Bill bought some powder stuff he sprinkled all around the outside of the house that is supposed to kill them or at least create a barrier they won’t cross. We have always used  a pest control service once a month and they are scheduled to come back on Friday. I am also looking into having our house sealed, both inside, and out, so there are no cracks for them to get in or out of as I now know they will make a home within your walls!!!.. this really does just keep getting bigger and bigger, and seems to be taking on a life of it’s own, at least in my mind, or what is left of my mind.

So, now that I haven’t seen any more scorpions since Saturday, I am at least able to get a few hours sleep, but only with a night-light on. Picture this…my cat, Carmen, sleeps at the foot of our bed… usually. But lately she has taken to roaming the house at night. I just know she is hunting scorpions…so I finally fall asleep from sheer exhaustion, when all the sudden Carmen jumps up on our bed and gets right in my face. I swear I thought I was going to have a heart attack. I get her settled down, and myself..start falling off to sleep again…when all the sudden Carmen jumps off the bed, runs over to the wall and starts batting at something…I jump up, creep over to see what it was, and THANK YOU JESUS…it was only her little feather toy…heart be still, and everything else in this house!

I’m going to NYC next Saturday to see my frissy for a much-needed break. I hope this nightmare will be over back here at the ranch by the time I get home, because I don’t like spiders and snakes…and I HATE SCORPIONS!!!

Stay tuned!

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7 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. gotham girl
    May 02, 2012 @ 21:42:32

    Oh sweetie…we had them for YEARS!!! This has got to be the funniest post I’ve ever read in my life. I can so relate and it took me years to finally cope…it does get better, honest! I guess it rules out you ever going to Italy. They have big black ones there. But no scorpions in NYC and don’t pack any!!! xoxoxoxo BIG!

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    • beyondcinderella
      May 03, 2012 @ 01:27:33

      Thanks Frissy, I will hold onto that thought that “it does get better…” Can’t wait to get to YOUR city…I promise I will shake,shake, shake,everything out so I don’t bring anything but me to NYC:)MORE!! GH

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  2. Ellen Kaufman
    May 02, 2012 @ 22:13:52

    Well at least you can get away for awhile like you said and Bill will have them all gone when you get back home. I hate everything and anything that resembles a bug or spider or snakes. We have a pest control service and I make sure he spray all nokes around the outside of the house, plus I have Harvey spraying doorways and window sills. Try to get some rest and get ready for NYC!!!!!!

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    • beyondcinderella
      May 03, 2012 @ 01:29:47

      Thanks Aunt Ellen. Yes, I am so looking forward to my trip to NYC to visit my Frissy…we always have so much fun and it is the perfect thing to help me forget about all my little unwanted visitors back here at home. Love you. Cindy

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  3. Tracie
    May 03, 2012 @ 00:52:38

    I feel your pain. Luckily I’ve never seen one at my house but my daughter moved into her dad’s old house (with a pool — I hear the little suckers are attracted to water) and they’ve been finding them at their place. 2 of them were in Emmalee’s bathroom so now she’s afraid to take a shower in her own bathroom, she uses Kim and Nick’s bathroom. – at least I’ve never seen one at my house but of course I’m not looking too hard for them — like you do not like them at all and I certainly would NOT go hunting for them. Have a great time in NYC!!!

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    • beyondcinderella
      May 03, 2012 @ 01:32:48

      Be thankful for what you don’t have Tracie…I feel for your little Emmalee. If I’m this afraid of them, I can only imagine what a small child goes through. When I get back from my week in NYC I will plan a get together for all of us. Love you, Cindy

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  4. Megs
    May 03, 2012 @ 04:12:20

    I am scared of scorpions! Xo

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