EMDR – It Works

Back in July of 2012, I entered into therapy for what I thought at the time was a phobia to scorpions. If you follow my blog, you might remember we moved into our beautiful, new home, in Chandler Arizona, in April of 2012, and immediately I came to realize our new home was also home to scorpions. I’ve lived in Arizona all of my 60 years, and I had never seen scorpions in or around any home I ever lived in. Since I never encountered these evil creatures, I had no idea I would be absolutely TERRIFIED of them. A long story made short, I also came to realize my fear/terror was far beyond the reaction other’s expressed when confronted with scorpions. I knew I had to seek help, and help came in the form of my wonderful therapist, Barbara, who just happened to also be a EMDR Trauma Clinician Level II.

Barbara immediately assessed my situation and told me I suffered from a “break with reality” which was causing me to see the scorpions as a much bigger threat to me than they really are. She was right. When I looked at a scorpion back then, I saw Tyrannosaurus Rex, instead of a tiny little creature that it is. And I was not able to see that in reality, it is more afraid of me than I am of it. Not a concept I was readily able to accept back then.

However, after working through intense therapy with Barbara who administrated EMDR as needed, I could feel my anxiety level begin to subside. It didn’t happen over night, no, it started slowly and very gradually. In fact, it came in small, baby steps. The first time I saw a scorpion after receiving EMDR, I was still filled with fear, but I was able to get the scorpion killer spray to spray it dead, then get the long BBQ tongs and take it outside where I smashed it over and over with a long-handled hammer, just to be sure it was really dead, and not just stunned…

I was just thinking to myself yesterday that I haven’t seen any scorpions in or around our house for months…I was finally starting to think we finally got rid of them for good…but, NO…much to my surprise, this very morning, as I was pushing the dust mop through the kitchen, I noticed something move…and right there in front of me was a big fat scorpion…

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BUT, I did not panic as I have in the past…NO, I had moments to make a flight or fight decision because the scorpion was already starting to run towards the refrigerator, where I would not be able to reach it even with the scorpion killer spray, which in turn would have caused me to be anxious all day wondering where it might end up, and of course, I might have a tendency to think it would head straight for my bed as a form of revenge for me killing so many of it’s realitives….But I DID NOT PANIC…I simply, and quickly, killed it with my slipper…my slipper that was still connected to my FOOT people..

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I stomped that evil scorpion like a tent-peg…

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Now, don’t get me wrong…my heart was racing, but not until after the scorpion was dead, and I realized what I had just done with my very own foot…But, I felt such a sense of accomplishment! Now, some might not think this such a BIG deal, and to them I say thank God you never had to confront your biggest fears….but for me, it was a VERY, VERY BIG VICTORY, one I couldn’t have even imagined before I entered into therapy with Barbara, who introduced me to EMDR, which I now know beyond a shadow of a doubt…EMDR really does work, and for that, I will be forever grateful because it brought me to a brand new me, who is now able to confront my biggest fears, and a me, who looks forward to each beautiful, brand new day.

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I continue to work with Barbara knowing each session helps me understand myself better as we pull back the layers of what shaped my life thus far, and work together to mold my life into what I want and deserve it to be.

Stay Tuned!

7 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. gotham girl
    Jan 18, 2013 @ 16:40:36

    And you my sweet are so very very deserving. I am sooooo proud of you! Love you bunches!!

    Reply

  2. Ellen Kaufman
    Jan 18, 2013 @ 21:16:12

    Congrats! You have done very well. Such an accomplishment with a large thing like that…..I very proud of you Cindy.

    Reply

  3. Bill
    Jan 18, 2013 @ 22:58:33

    I too am so proud of you, it would not have happened back in April for sure.

    Love You Bill

    Reply

  4. Megs
    Jan 30, 2013 @ 15:09:22

    OMG! That thing is huge!!! My heart is full that you are seeing success through EDMR. You should be proud of yourself! Love you! Xoxo

    Reply

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