I’ve heard it said that when we get to heaven there will be no more tears and no more pain… But I now believe there will be tears in heaven, at least for me there will be.
Today is our daughter, Shantel’s, birthday. She is 24 years old today.
Shantel lost both her eyes to cancer before she was two years old. Because she was so young when she lost her sight, she doesn’t know what Bill and I look like. In fact, when she first lost her sight, I would always say “hi, Shantel, it’s mama” whenever I picked her up from her crib etc. so she would learn to recognize my voice.
As she got older, and I would go to pick her up from daycare, or even a little later when I would go to pick her up from school…, I would always approach her saying “hi Shantel, it’s mama”, and she would always answer “hi mama”.
A couple of weeks ago I had a dream that was so real, and affected me so profoundly, that I couldn’t even tell Bill about it because it just overwhelmed me with emotion. I dreamed I had passed away, and was in heaven, and I became aware that it was Shantel’s time to come to heaven, and I was sent to meet her at the gates of heaven. I stood at the gates of heaven and watched as Shantel approached me. Of course, she could see now because she was made whole and had both her natural eyes again. As she came closer to me I said “hi Shantel”, and she looked into my eyes and said “mama”? I said “yes”, and she said “oh, mama, you’re so beautiful”, and we hugged each other so long, and so hard, and let me tell you there were tears in heaven that day… tears of pure joy!
Happy Birthday, Shantel.
I love you,
Mama
Jun 16, 2017 @ 16:55:46
This is so beautiful and moving…I sent a FB note to Shantel wishing her a Happy Birthday! You are an amazing mama. Love you.
Jun 16, 2017 @ 23:57:30
Thank you frissy. I don’t know where it came from…, and I don’t know what it means…But it was the most emotional dream I’ve ever had about Shantel.XoXo
Jun 16, 2017 @ 17:07:40
Thank you for sharing. I have no words but my heart burst with joyfor you and Shantel. Happy Birthday Shantel you are a beautiful young woman. I love you all.
Jun 16, 2017 @ 23:58:14
Love you too Lucie, XoXo
Jun 16, 2017 @ 22:14:12
This was the most emotional post you have made so far, I just hope I can be standing there with you when Shantel comes home.
Love you Girly.
Jun 17, 2017 @ 00:08:04
Well, this is the most emotional response you’ve ever left, Bill. It was a dream of mine…, And in the dream you were not in heaven with me yet… But, like I said.., it was a dream I had… In reality, I’m hoping both you and I will be in heaven long before Shantel.. And I’m almost sure, when we are in heaven together…, God will send us both to go welcome Shantel home, and she will recognize both of us together… XoXo